Too many thoughts ---- not enough "RAM"

Stressed.... need to sort out my thoughts...

Got MNO project, dunno where to start or how to start...

Got BM training, physically draining...

Got 4 mid-terms, haven't started to revise on anyone of them, haven't got the time...

Mid-sem break fully booked... need to find and squeeze time...

Got administrative stuff not settled... owed for 3 weeks le...

Most importantly, I've got no mood to do any of the above....

Worse still, oversleeping is killing me...

Missed a couple of hours of lecture already... It's taking its toll...

I think somebody is avoiding, or maybe I think too much or maybe just cause it's becoming more hardworking... I got no time to think but I cannot dun think... it already missed a couple of lessons already... I'm worried but why should I?


Prioritise and force myself to do what's most important first la... Set

Exhausted

Taking 6 modules is really a chore... Now I understand...
plus spending time training for my Bronze Medallion...

I'm physically exhausted....

Woke up late again...

Mid-Sem break fully booked....

No time...

My Condolences

To the one who picked up my jacket,

Blessed be you. It was my 21st birthday present, along with a T-shirt and a choker and a watch, given to me from friends I thank God for. I pray that the jacket will bring you warmth, as well as to the people around you, just as it did when it was with me. I pray that you'll be a good owner of the jacket, for I've failed to be one.

Owner of Flesh Imp Jacket for 442 days,
Goodbye and Take cAre!

老爸的背影

今天回家后遇到刚下班的老爸。。。
他已经开始有点驼背了，脚也不好，却还是快步的赶回家。。。
他的头发早就没有当年的乌黑浓密了；斑白的地区也迅速的扩张，现在也已经满头白发了。。。

还记得，当年我们还住在景万岸（Kembangang)。房子颇大，是间五房式的政府组屋。
小学在大巴窑，因为距离的关系，每天早上都迟到。 老爸总会驾着那辆破旧的Honda在我上学。。。

想到这里，我的心不禁感到一阵酸。 爸真的老了，连那严肃魁梧的背影也变得和蔼又沧桑。。。

爸，要加油啊！我会努力读书的！

Truth

What is truth? Can what I see be explained? What should I do, or should I say what should I believe?

<< Till We Have Faces >>

This is the title of the play, A KEVII Hall Production. Extracted from CS Lewis' last piece of work and made into a play. Mind-boggling but at the same time, entertaining. I had a few takeaways from the play. Never expect myself to enjoy a play so much more than just the entertainment value.

My Character

I dun believe this when I was told by someone that I'm 花心... I admit that I am rather flirtatious in nature... And I dun want that... So... if you guys see me buaya-ing... stop me. Thanks...

But of course, I'll still do my part, cause I feel that even though sometimes it can be subconscious, I cna do my part by not being too close... "Stay vigilant" so-called... Remember my resolution on my multiply? it still holds... no gf for this year... yea...

Chinese Calligraphy

Today's fellowship was based on Chinese Calligraphy... Linda lead song or should I say matthew lead song... whatever... Kingyu came so I was quite happy... Not that I "scored" a point but that she can know my wonderful friends and a chance for pastor may eng to talk to her... (Know that I'm not very good at talking).

Anyways end up as ME "teaching" them how to write Chinese Calligraphy... Of course, I'm not good enough to teach... but good enough to sian... and I realise that my understanding of calligraphy has reached another level... Okay, cause the thing is, ever since the calligraphy lesson in sec2, I've always been thinking about how come the chinese characters can be written so nicely using a brush... My teacher's book merely served as a history book at first, but slowly I'm managed to grasp the concepts behind it. So the truth is, most of the things I thought today are things that I so-called "领悟". ha, oh well.

First post here

Been shifting from here to multiply and back forth...

Realised that I've always been doing this... cannot stick to 1blog to tell it all....

Anyways this blogskin is still in the embryonic stage... I find it kinda plain... will see further development after a DreamWeaver CS3 course

yea.

Been reflecting. God has made me who I am. Mat says I have the potential to have the heart for people. That I have to gift to befriend, to plan activities, and in terms of administration.
I also know I can and must stand up to the challenge. What choice do I have? Run away? How far can I run from God's judgement? I really want to submit and yes I want to see God working in my life, in my family, in my friends. I thirst and long and am impatient. Yes, I lack patience.

I am encouraged when I see God's hand moving among the people and He does wondeful things. Sadly, I'm also discouraged when I see things not moving as they should. When people stop responding, when everything is just not right. I am an Energizer battery but at times like this, I get drained too.

How I wish there were 240hrs each day. And we dun have to sleep so much. There's so many things I want to do... I want to play my guitar, I want to learn jap, spanish, greek, canto and henghua. I want to learn driving, diving, lifesaving. I want to learn the drums, the keyboard. I want to travel. I want to skydive.

I know God has in store for me a better plan. But, sadly the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.
The potter has still a long way to sculpture the vessel he can use.