I dun understand

当一个伤口出现时。。。
往往都会马上用棉花去止血。。。
一旦伤口愈合，
棉花便拔不出来了。。。

九月九：重阳节

独在异乡为异客，
每逢佳节倍思亲；
遥知兄弟登高处，
遍插茱萸少一人

献给在外留学的每一个人。。。

The Moment

Went back home earlier than I had planned...
Sudddenly felt that the Lord had prompt me to talk to my Dad...
He was happy...
That I went...
Leaving for China at 3am tmr...
Some unsettled stuff there...
Anywayz that's not the main point...

I brought up the topic,
about my baptism...
And he didn't object...
All he said was:
二十一岁了，长大了。。。
You gotta make your own choice...
I'm not going to stop you...

That was all that I need...
Though he tried to dissuade me...
But somehow he knew I was determined...
And so we went on to talk about other things...

Baptism's 4th Nov at 3pm at East Coast...
Be inspired!

sleep

after a good nap in the library definitely works wonders...
solved the programming lab in my dreams!
hahaha...
stress

Viva la ViVo CiTy ( 怡丰城）

After lunch went to Vivo City...

Comments
1) Maybe because of the overwhelming crowd... The place's sanitary systems are overloaded...
Toilets are dirty and full of shit(literally)
2) There are pools on the roof top...
Kids were playing in them... Water clean or dirty dunno... might cause a widespread of waterborne diseases sia... somemore might have small and sharp objects in the shallow pool..
What were the designers thinking of...
3) It's a big and hard to maintain shopping mall... Potted plants were not yet set in place...
cigarette butts are stuck in between planks of wood... Lack of maps and directions...
4) The only cool thing is the deck like structure created on the outside of the shopping mall...

I like this feeling...
In the midst of people, I can feel this solitude...
In the midst of the noise, I can hear silence...
Everyone around me is their own... and I am I...

SeNtOsA!!

Yay...
finally went to my favorite place after so long...
With matt, ruqi and priscilla...

Oh...
No pics though haha...
Just swam and tanned...
cool!

Holidays

haha... looking forward to tmr...
but still hope to accomplish some studying...

my tooth still hurts...
gotta remember to make dental appointment...

Grace's party

Actually wasn't really entirely on Grace's party...
But anyway's just named it after her party can? haha


Thank you leh... for inviting us to your party... and I think we still make the most noise haha..(as usual)
Really funny cause when we stopped talking(finally...) to take photos the entire house went silent..
totally..
ahaha...

And Tang was like saying" 2 yrs ago we met up and we talk about Army. Now we meet up and we talk abt uni." Haha... but it's true and I believe it's a change that all of us have to adapt to and hence the desire to have someone with the same situation to have that 认同感... If you get what I mean...

After birthday went to Zac's place to play mj...
Haha... it's been a while since this combination appeared again...
Zac, Belle, Me, Jas...
Played 2 rounds till 6....
winnings were just enough to cover my supper...
haha..
good enough for me...

Rushed down for BS...
Then on the way back there was this japanese couple with 2 kids that were on the same bus...
They're very cute!
Just like those kind you see in japanese anime...
The wife very pretty and demure and a cute voice...
Then the husband also very gentle, loving and those kind of cartoon-like voice...
And then the kids were like very smart and cute too..
Hahaha...
Very cute就对了...

Complaining

I may be always complaining but deep in my heart...
Really deep deep down in my heart I'm happy...

Why?

I'm a simple man...
Finding my phone can make me happy...
Watching cartoons can make me happy...
Even just playing a game can make me happy...
Jokes can make me happy...
Having company can make me happy...
So does solitude...

Disappointments in life dun kill me...
They'll only make me strive even harder...
That is me...
Just like a cockroach...
打也打不死。。。

Dinner @ Holland V

Today's lab seemed much less challenging than the first one..
and this one could be handed in on Monday...
Which means I can research and check my answers...

After lab went to library to mug...
Crashed Linda's lecture @ Lt 9...
Haha... dunno why I was there also... haha...
but micro at 3000 level din seem alien at all...
Ahahah...
But still I prefer doing the lab report for physics...
Well...

Went to Holland V to eat dinner...
Couldn't decide at first...
Ended up in NYDC...
Tt's my second time to a NYDC restaurant..
haha...
Nice dinner...

Met Linda's good friend Brandon( did I spell it correctly)...
cause he lived nearby...
A funny guy on the outside...
But I could not help but sense the deepness in him...
For a moment I felt stressed...
Hahaha...
Different level of pple I guess...
could tell that he is damn smart...
but if I were to stay a while longer with this person I might go mad...
not because he's weird...
but he's good at phrasing questions..
simple questions...
totally stunned by him...
this Brandon...

Nearly spoilt the night...
And an " adventure" occured on my way home...
I placed my phone in this phone pouch attached to the strap on my bag...
then I went to play Liero on my laptop cause there were few pple on the bus..
BUT,
I got so engrossed I din even notice that the bus was getting full.
So, when I stopped playing then I realised I had forgotten where I have left my phone...
search high and low...
already very sian in the elevator..
Then I saw it...
lying safely in the pouch above my shoulder..
WTH....
totally sianz...

Emo

Recently during a lunch, I was told that you generally tell if a person's a rational one or a emo kind by looking at the way he/she clasps his/her hands.

If the fingers on the left hand are on top ---> emo kind
If the fingers on the right hand are on top ---> rational kind

So it thought since I know liao that it wouldn't be accurate le...
So, I decided to try it out...
I realised (to my horror of course) that all the while, the fingers on my left hand are always above those on my right hand, and when I tried to place them the opposite way, it just didn't feel like they fit!...

hahaha... this test is very generic and may not work all the time
but still it can be a good birthday party cheap talk isn't it?
Enjoy!

Alive and kicking

Ahaha... was browsing through my bros' blog...
All dead...
only mine's still alive and kicking...
for now...

Toothache...
irritating...
think my molars are coming off soon...
starting to get ulcers in my mouth and my body is very "heaty"
gotta drink more water cause I think it's either the adult tooth is coming out,
Or I have tooth decay..
lol

Econs seemed less frightening after knowing my results and after today's tutorial...
Maths still scare the hell out of me cause I spend the whole evening trying to do the new tutorial...
keke...
Library's closing soon...
Gotta get outta here...

Basketball

Sorry guys tt you all had to carry my bag...
Haha...
but the game was fun..
of course for the guys at least..
Not sure for the gals...
Is the game too rough?

Had backache...
Must be too long neva exert le...
Felt like my bones are getting loose..
Ahaha...
I wonder what will happen to me if I kena recall... :P

Listened to some sad songs after dinner at the food court...
plenty of flashbacks...
life gotta go on my friend...
and you better...
cause the sem is coming to an end!

Thank God

Really very shocked...
when Lenny msged me and told me that I got 40 out of 44 for econs...
I got a flashback...
And I recalled that the questions looked super alien to me...
And I had to reason out the answer one by one...
Felt tt I really gonna lose to those who took econs...
Praise the Lord, almighty and always faithful...
it was a miracle...

Why

Why...
What didn't affect me then...
Would affect me so badly now...

Why...
Does my heart feel hurt...
When I did not fight for it...

Dunno what I'm talking about also...
PMS bah...
Hope to get over it soon...

Photoshop Day1

Wah...
really nice course I think...
Got to know the technical terms and most of the tools available...

Will not be going tmr cause got fellowship...
But anyway tmr's abt layer's which I already quite familiar with in flash..
ahaha..

Tagboards down

Recently a lot of tagboards have been hit by an unknown phenomena...
think it's been hacked...
and it's time to switch...
I recommend chatterbox...

Bad dreams

Bad dreams...
Weird dreams...
Not sleeping is still the best...
I guess...

Power @ 7

Really shocked...
Haven't gone for sat @ seven for a few weeks...
Today, Snr Pst David spoke with such power...
And a very loud voice too...

"I know whom I have believed"
People fell, one after another...
I was too scared to go up...
Trembling in the presence of God...

After service was a nice dinner at Long John's...
Harmonised this song:

I am cow

I am cow, Hear me moo,
I weigh twice as much as you,
And I look good on a barbeque;
Yogurt, curd, cream, cheese and butter,
All from outcome from my udder,
I am cow, I am cow, hear me moo~

I am cow eating grass,
Methane gas comes out of my ass,
And out of my mouth when I belch;
Ozone's layer's getting thinner,
From the outcome of my dinner,
I am cow, I am cow, I got gas~

I am cow, here I stand,
Far and wide across this land,
And I am almost everywhere;
From DC to Newfoundland,
You can squeeze my tits by hand,
I am cow, I am cow, I am cow~

I am cow, I am cow, I am cow~

Simple dreams... Is that hard to achieve

I nv dreamt to be an engineer that can change the world...
Tts too much...
I nv dreamt to be an Electrical Engineer...
It wasn't my first choice...
Yet, what motivates me is the responsibility...
At the very moment I chose to accept this course...
I put a very huge responsiblity on my shoulders...
That my future employers will get they pay for...
A professional...
One who can do perfectly what he is trained for...
Like how a MG gunner would operate a MG...
like how a signaller would operate a signal set...

Yet, this is not even there yet...
I'm only at the level 1000s....
And I'm under-performing...
yet I dunno what else can I do...
My friends look at the way I study...
And they think I'm crazy....
What is that I should have done but haven't?

I'll now:
1) Prepare lectures in way advance
2)Prepare tutorials in way advance
3) Compile my own set of notes and memorise it
4)Do more reading up

think tt should be enough to kill me le...
hahaha...
people say can laugh means feeling better le...
I guess so...

Just before the test

I never had this feeling...
Study too much for a test...
Oh my gosh...
Don't fail me...

small fire

was on my home just now where I saw a "red rhino" and a police car and there was a lot of commotion...
apparently a dustbin below blk 86 caught fire and started to burn...
looks quite harmless and there were no apparent damages other than the deformed shape of the dustbin...
exciting...

Photoshop

Finally signed up for the photoshop course...
Thanks shradda...

At the brink of insanity

These few weeks of muggign have drained me...
The first half of the sem was still ok...
yet, when it comes to mid terms, things start to snowball...

I'm living on "afterburner" for these 2 weeks...
Living on borrowed time...
Living on borrowed strength...

I've been asking myself some questions...
Am I asking too much of myself?
Am I pursuing something that I cannot achieve?
Is this what God really wants me to do?
Have aimed too high and in the end fall flat on my face?

Questions looking for an answer...
Still, more challenges are on their way...
Everyday is a test of endurance...

I will survive but I'm not sure how sane will I be...

5 tips for man

Couped the following joke from my 2IC's blog ahaha... have a good laugh...

5 tips for man

• It is important that a woman helps around the house and doesn't complain about it
• It is important that a woman makes you laugh
• It is important to find a woman you can count on and doesn't lie to you
• It is important that a woman loves you and spoils you
• It is important that these four women don't know each other.

if you achieve that ? you are one damn lucky man !

stop dreaming ................. lolx ~

And the following reply came:

It is important that a woman helps around the house and doesn't complain about it
my maid (if i have one...)
It is important that a woman makes you laugh
patricia mok... every tuesday, my sassy neighbour, channel 5...
It is important to find a woman you can count on and doesn't lie to you
picture of paris hilton.. can count on 'her' to cheer me up... and she doesn't lie to me. cos the last i check... photos dun talk back...
It is important that a woman loves you and spoils you
mum of course!
It is important that these four women don't know each other.
i dun think my mum knows a maid (which i dun have)... she know paris & pat... but they don't know her...

so... pass?

The Haze

Wow...
was on my way home after physics paper...
felt a little asthmatic...
a little out of breath...
the air stinks...

and it's been a long time since I saw a haze so thick...
looked like Genting Highlands...
Thanks Indonesia

The derogation of variety shows

I'm not sure whether there's such a word "derogatory",
But I'm sure that some of you might have saw this Taiwanese reality show led by host Jacky Wu...
Personally I'm ok with the show on the whole except for one part where they got 2 elderlies to sing a "song" that sounds vulgar...
And guests stars just laugh at them...
I feel quite sorry for the 2 elderlies whom I think don't have a idea of what they are doing...
And I'm quite disgusted...
Even though I am relieved that it was censored from our TV programs...
But I'm quite upset that such media could be viewed freely from our internet access...

Indeed, relativism has become more and more real in our life and we must be steadfast in our values...
It's just like physics...
As long as you hold on to the correct set of "laws"
No matter relative the question can be...
It can be solved...
Are we steadfast in our values?
Or are we part of the world and does what the world think is right?
Only you have the answer...

Halfway through Midterms

Really must give thanks to God...
that I made much less careless mistakes...
that He answered my prayer...
for peace of mind...
for opening of my eyes to see the tricks in the questions...
almost full marks for both papers today...

Wanna thank those who prayed for me...
Thanks to Lenny for the prayer before the paper...
Really thank you all...

Cannot slack...
Monday's got econs paper...
gotta keep up with my double-steam-ahead-hard-core-mugging...
chiong-ah....

Breeze

Today's lab was a breeze...
Really breeze...
And cold...
Glad that I practised the program at home...

Mr Eye-bags

After these few days of studying through the night and catching sleep in bus...

I'm going to name myself Mr. Eye-bags...

Only for two nights...

Yesterday had a good sleep...
And thanks to everyone who was worried about me...
And all the things abt study smart and 休息是为了走更长远的路。。。
I was very toouched...

And of course the big-headed Mr Eye-bags would say of course I know my limits...
which I do...
And I had a very good night sleep yesterday and all I learnt this past 60hrs has been stored in my "hard disks"...
Ooops sound wrong...
have fun studying...

P.S. The midterm week is like hell-week...

My first test in Uni

Woah...
I can't breathe...
Not that I can't have freedom of speech...
Not enough time...
Not enough practice...
Going through my paper now...
Ok lar... barely got 6 questions right...
Not as bad as I thought after stepping out of the room...
But the pressure was tremendous...
Shucks, made 4 careless mistakes...
Hope that I can get at least a B...

I have lost this battle but I have not lost the war...
But it doesn't look good for the upcoming battle...
too many uncertainties...
too many casualties this time round...
I would need a couple of As to pull my CAP up...

All out to set things right...
things let out of my chest always makes me feel better...
我不想把我的快乐建立在别人的痛苦上。。。

Next will be my water baptism...
Hurray...
But I still haven't found the courage to tell my parents...
They have a handful of problems on their hands as well...
Sigh...
That will be my next thing to set right...

Anyway, the water baptism service will be held on 4th Nov at 1530hrs at East Coast near the Big Splash... I will post again to confirm whether I am cleared to go or locked out of my house... haha... jkjk...

Back to study...
Must double my efforts in mugging...
I dun believe I will be beaten by a couple of careless mistakes...
practice is the key...
I always believed...
and God too...