你真么。。。

你怎么来也匆匆，去也匆匆？

Army Half Marathon

Went for a half marathon this morning...
21km...
Totally not prepared for it...
No warm-up, not enough sleep, not enough training...
Came back with a lousy timing of 2 hr 17mins...
Shag...

Today the whole day my body felt weak...
And I think I put too much strain on my knees...
Now every time I stand up I feel the pain in my knees...


Just received a letter of membership from Sds..
Dun be mistaken... I'm not desperate... Yet...
I'm only 21 this year...
Got plenty of time and space...
I just dunno how I ended up in their mailing list...

Fellowship Of The Ring

Did the Fellowship Of The Ring last forever?
Thats my thoughts when I said:“这事世上是没有永远的朋友的”

My gut feeling is...
The pressure of all the activities we're committed to...
The brotherhood has been deeply shakened...
Now it's up to fate whether the brotherhood will survive this ordeal...
Yes, I say it's up to fate... Cause it's not even up to us...
The power is not in our hands...

Sigh...
Sad isn't it?

好想好想

好想好想和你在一起 和你一起数天上的星星
收集春天的 细雨
好想好想和你在一起 听你诉说古老的故事
细数你眼中 的情意
好想好想 好想好想
好想好想 和你在一起
踏遍万水千山 走遍海角天涯
让每一个日子 都串连成
我们最美丽 最美丽的回忆

好想好想和你在一起 并肩看 天边的落日
并肩听 林间的鸟语 Woo~

好想好想 好想好想
好想好想 和你在一起 Woo~
踏遍万水千山 走遍海角天涯
让每一个日子 都串连成
我们最美丽 最美丽的回忆

好想好想 好想好想
好想好想 和你在一起 Woo~
踏遍万水千山 走遍海角天涯
让每一个日子 都串连成
我们最美丽 最美丽的回忆

渴望

我会渴望在msn上看到你online...
我会渴望与你交谈，但从不自己展开话题...
我会渴望与你玩网络游戏，但总是等你来问...
我会渴望与你交往，却害怕被拒绝...
我会渴望与你出门，却不敢开口...
我会渴望平珍惜与你相处的每一份每一秒，因为得来不易...

我是不是渴望太多了？

School

Well.. It's the 2nd week into school...
Tutorials haven't start yet...
But, the pressure is very great now...
Last time, studying was a breeze, cause you know you're at the top...
Amongst the top in the class in the school...
Staying afloat at the top was easy...
But NOW, we're all at the bottom...
Everyone...
So whoever swims the fastest will win the race....
I'm not a person who succumbs easily to pressure....
Instead of facing the pressure to work hard... and exhaust myself,
I let my hair now and then... Try not to think about study when I resting...
Well, that has it's repercussions...
Trying to staying afloat treading water and not cramping and relaxing is a very difficult thing...
Must control and not let the enthusiasm overwhelm...
THIS IS A MARATHON...

Warm up run...

Today felt really fedup with the bidding thingy...
Went out to run for relaxing...
So I ran... Up to Toa Payoh North(Braddell MRT)
then to CHIJ... Then to Toa Payoh Central... Past SAFRA... Round Kim Keat... Past the industrial area... Past Lor 8... On to Braddell road... Up to Serangoon... Then Potong Pasir... Ran inside 1 round... then cross the CTE and back to Toa Payoh...
About 16-17km...
Took 1 1/2 hrs...
not bad for a run/jog...

Clicked

Ok... Just came back from the cinema... Still feeling touched and fired up by the movie "Click" by Adam Sandlers... At first I thought it was a comedy... nothing much to expect... I was wrong... Apparently it has much to tell:
Adam Sandler was an architect and had a average family... But he was so cooked up with his work... Falling asleep in a IKEA look-a-like store... He finds himself a Universal Remote Controller... before he knew it, he was fast-forwarding through times which he found bothersome, like falling sick, bathing, even quarrels with his wife and even sex... Soon he started to fast forward times with his family. During this times he was on autopilot... meaning he is physically there but not mentally... And the remote control, being a futuristic device, was "fully automatic"... So it was when he zoomed through time with promotion... 1 yr, 10 yrs... before he knew it he was fat, CEO of the company, lost his wife. He dun even recognise his son and daughter... But it was too late... because he can't undo what he has done... Then he falls sick and zoomed past another 6 yrs... He was dying... but finally gets the courage to tell the family that he was sorry and then dies... Then the cliche ending... He woke up... On the bed in the store... And returns home to treasure his life...
To me... it really touches me... it made me think... Have I lived my life fully and the way I wanted? I realise I dun have the answer... I've zoomed past primary school... Playing and playing and not making a lot of friends... I've zoomed past secondary school and JC and even NS... and now... I'm almost 21... What have I achieved? What am I going to achieve in my uni days? What am I going to achieve in my life? How am I going to treasure my life and relationships more?
At that dying instant... tears rolled down my cheeks... Cause I've also been a jerk... Always treating the people around me for granted... Time really flies... 20 years have already past... I dun wanna fast forward anymore... I wanna live my life to the fullest... I really wanna

Lost

Suddenly I felt lost...
In this new world called NUS...
I see a beacon... And thats my laptop...
And I see land... that's the NUS website...

All this self-directed learning...
Is draining my confidence that I can do well...
It seems like every module is a gamble...
If you understand, you'll do well...
If you dun... that's it... your down... bye bye...

CORS

If I ever said," I understand how you feel... Yar... the CORS system is terrible.".... I don't... until now... tomorrow is my matric day and tomorrow the bidding will start... Even though as a freshie I'll be protected and there are pre-allocated modules, I can feel the pek-cek and frustration and stress if I dun get what I bid for...sigh... But for now, that's the best way to determine who gets it or not... isn't it?

Self conceited

I believe those who are self conceited would say that they are not self-conceited...
But if I know that I act self-conceitedly, am I still self-conceited?